Everytime

Everytime when im feeling down, im always glad that my blog is here to accompany me

Perhaps im tired of explaining

Or just want time to sort out my thoughts 

So that i can have a clear picture of whats going on.

Sometimes, i just wish that you are here with me just like before 

Beside me to accompany me when im down 

Just staying beside me. But now cant any longer

You have changed. And undeniably, i have, too. 

Perhaps, its just the feeling of loneliness. But sometimes, undeniably, i miss you

As a friend. 

Two more days to go

I am afraid. Really afraid. 

Even though i dont show it, but maybe closer friends can feel it 

Every night, i pray to god for the outcome i wish for 

But in the end, i am actually unsure what outcome i really wanted

To stay or not to stay? 

Though im not the one to decide, but there should be something i really wanted

What is it that i really wanted? I dont know

Im confused. 

Once again, i lost direction

Read a book yesterday, well it has been ages since i last read a book in a bookstore but it captivated me

And a line instantly got my attention - who am i? 

Who am I? 

I live for people, or i live for myself?

Everything i do, i do it for myself or for the sake of other people? 

Well, its inter-related, perhaps 50 50 

Thats why the direction is unclear, cz its also 50 50

Cant full heartedly choose a direction because there are many factors

Fairy tales lie.

Following your heart, is never always an option. 

I have also read, 

It doesnt matter where we are going, but it matters who we are becoming. 

But for me, it matters where i am going. Triple sweat 

I dont like the feeling of being abandoned. Its just so, abandoned 

Sometimes, i wonder why life is so uncertain

I know, this is a part of growing

Say im childish, but can it be possible that everything just stays the way it is?

Everyone remains the same, everything there stays 

I am really tired, really really tired 

Please pray for me

At the end of 2 months,

All will be fine

Where will our future lie? 

Btw, super super love this song

Was listening to this while i was writing this blog

So it should be here.

=)

Time to sleep 

Stay with me in my heart 

March 25 2013 Hours 2159