I wonder

They say, life is short

Live one day at a time

Spend days living and not worrying because worrying does not give solutions

Appreciate the present because you will never know what will happen tomorrow

As long as we are happy everything will be alright

If only fairy tales are reality,happy ever after, after the bad guys are gone

But life is not a fairy tale

maybe i am really thinking too much, but how can we not think about the future?

I am afraid of what the future has to hold because i see many many challenges, so grey

I am torn between you and my family

I understand they want the best for me,but i am choosing to avoid this question

I am scared of explaining because the more i try to explain, the more i am unsure

I am scared, one day,i cant even convince myself, how will it be then?

but i cant let you go because i cant imagine life without you

Dear, I am sorry you fell in love with the wrong person

Because maybe i am not worth your love

What am i doing

I am afraid to hug you,because i am scared

I am scared if i hug you tight, i really cant let you go if one day, you really need to

I cant be so selfish

You should have a complete family

Something that i may not be able to give you

Saw my friend post in fb

The best boyfriend isnt the best looking, the richest or the funniest,

But the one that can make me smile with no reason

I want to let you know

To me, you are my best boyfriend because you are incomparable

I know i seldom tell you this but i should let you know

I am glad for your presence in my life, 

because you are always there for me regardless of what

Dear,no matter what happens in the future,

You always have a special spot in my heart

I want to hold your hand

But maybe i am not that strong

I am tired, really tired

I wish for a vacation, where i can just travel myself and see the world

To be away from everything 

But this is not possible

I feel very heavy

But life goes on.

God,please give me strength 

Please give me a direction.

July 28 2013 Hours 2147