Uncertain

Here comes the time

When i am again uncertain on what i should do

Doing something for a reason, no longer makes sense

Its a if i have become so robotic

Wherever people go, i will go, but i dont know why.

Pathetic isnt it?

They say, dont ever look back.

But why do i keep looking back?

Whats so nice at the back?

Just a pitch of darkness. Dimness. Absolutely nothing.

Humans. Why do they keep telling themselves something but do things differently?

Who are we trying to fool?

Or should i rephrase..

Who am I trying to fool?

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There was a time when my msn status spells- afraid.

A friend asked me- why am i afraid?

He told me i have always been a strong girl and is never afraid

I was fascinated. Because i realised thats the impression im giving you?

I am not tough. But i am trying to be.

I am afraid, because i no longer know myself

I become so foreign.

But luckily my white blood cells can still recognise me. Haha. Cold joke

But seriously..

I dont know how to explain. But i hope my fever will recover faster. Sponsor me panadol, anyone?

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Yesterday, marked the start of week 8 of final sem

So many mixed emotions altogether........

I just knew,

Many things changed

And it will never be the same again

April 17 2012 Hours 2319