Farewell

Funny, why humans only learn how to appreciate things around them when things are about to change

People, i miss them. 

After coming back frm camp ystdy,

And on the way to KL, i am beginning to feel hesitant again

Feeling really tired these days.

As i wonder again what i really wanted.

But after breakfast with a fren,

She told me to give myself a time frame so that i will feel less pressured

After this 2 years, perhaps going for working hols 

And taking the initiative to change a working environment, will be great for me. 

But one thing i am great of, it that i have a great bunch of colleagues 

Sincerity felt. Though i dont show it, but deep inside im glad. 

Lots of challenges ahead of me, im sure of. 

One big challenge, is parting ways with you all. 

I took all the chances i have to meet up with people i care most

Becz im scared of being abandoned after i walk this path

I dont know when i will have the chance to meet them next

By then, everyone will have a different identity.

First farewell with two of them at SS2 mall,
Tired after convo but they are stil there with me.
Thanks, lovesss

Lunch with them right before i return my robe, 

Hugssss

Two days of team building, and im back in kl again..

Dinner with friend :)) Actually i think he ady decided wat to eat but he kept giving me options swt lol. In the end.. tata..

Mee cooked with meat which is not kept in fridge, supposingly lol. Sweet soupy dish..

Mee with Fatty meat without ham.. Special! But we cant finish it cz we are too full after cups and cups of tea

Dessert! Yummy my fav mango ice
Next, will be the edible species of the frog family? Or is it chicken family? lol
Thank you for being part of my farewell memory. Misssss, will be missed, Friend.

Breakfast Dimsum!! XD 

Hot porridge to kickstart the day. Supposingly to open up the appetite but after that, im ad full =.=

Egg tart XD 

Chee Cheong Fun lol 

Forgot wat name ady but its super delicious ;D

How can a table of dimsum be complete without prawn? XD

And thats all we managed to eat =.= omg.
But glad to have time out with you :D

Tongyuen frm aunty prior to going back cz its a festival. 

Haha this is actually my lunch for that day :D
Cooked with gula melaka, simply irresistible

Appreciate what all of you have done for me
Looking forward to the next meet.

Sincerely hope,
Everything doesnt change.
October 24 Hours 2327
p/s took me 3 days to complete this blog post lol.
The reason?
To be continued :D 

Happiness and Sadness

Happiness and sadness.

They are inseparable. Just like twins. 

No matter how far they may go, at the end of the day or the end of the story, 

they will meet one another again.

It is impossible for us to feel happy all the time. 

In the process of growing, we feel sad when we encounter problems

We feel sad when we are isolated or abandoned. We feel sad when we are hurt.

We feel sad when we fail. We feel sad when we are not capable. 

Even the richest man in the world may be unhappy at times

There are just too many unpredictable factors which can make us upset. 

Its a life cycle, unavoidable.

Thats why we are human beings. Be proud to be one. We are not robots. 

We are born with emotions, with the ability to feel. 

I believe, we should appreciate that we are born this way.

We learn to heal from wounds, and then, to protect ourselves so that we will not make the same fall again. 

Wounds are there to teach us, do not make the same mistake again bcz scars are forever.

However, do not be afraid to try. Bcz if a kid is scared to ride a bike after getting wounds, he will never learn how to ride a bicycle and travel miles on it. 

You tell me you dont want to be happy

Because after feeling happy, you will feel sad when someone leaves. 

I am sad to say, you dont have a choice on what to feel cz feelings are natural.

We are born with it. No running away. 

 You cant control who comes into your life, and you cant control when they will be leaving.

Nothing in life is forever. 

Even myself, I dont know where I will be in a year's time.

Learn to let go. If they are fated to be somewhere, should let them go. 

If they are fated to be around you, then thats a bonus. Its fate. 

They have their own roads to walk. A group of friends can't remain together forever in the same environment. Its part of growing up. Its sad, yes, but its reality. 

Cherish the memories, rmb, knowing and parting, are part of life.

You grow through them. Life is cruel. But its happening. And we know it. 

I dont know for sure, but 

I think your problem lies in, 

You are afraid of getting hurt. You fear the feeling of getting abandoned. 

Thats why when someone comes along, you are afraid to be happy. 

Because you are scared you will get hurt when they leave. 

In a way, you are trying to protect yourself by trying not to feel. 

But feelings are natural. 

When you cant reach a balance between what your head wants, and what your heart wants,

Thats when you start to think a lot. 

The head wants the best for the people you care for, but the heart cant let go. 

You are not protecting yourself this way. Instead, you are making yourself more sad. 

Head is rational, heart is always not. The head thinks, the heart feels.

Business people, uses their head more than their heart when making important decisions.

Soft people, uses their heart more than their head while making important decisions.

But that doesnt make soft people less smart than business people. 

They are both great people, on equal par. 

Being able to feel, doesnt make you weaker or less smart. 

In fact, these people are the ones who actually make the world goes round, through the passion and care they show to other people. 

No matter which side you belong to, consider that as your strong point, becz thats what makes you unique. 

Everyone has their own principles when they are doing something. 

There is no such things as standard law of living bcz everyone has diff expectations and diff ways of doing things. 

What you think is right, may be wrong to some people. 

We cant control what they think, but as long as we know what we are doing, its more than fine. 

Life is an empty sheet of paper, and its up to us how we want to live it. 

We are all travellers, racing against time 

To meet expectations, to live our dreams. 

There are always ups and downs in life.

Just like a wavelength graph, they actually contribute to the colours in our lives.

If everything is a flat graph, we will never be able to differentiate which is joy, and which is sadness. 

You will never learn how to laugh genuinely, bcz you will never have known the feeling of sadness. 

You will never learn how to appreciate the beauty of life, bcz you will never have experienced a storm.

You will never have known the happy feeling of eating an icecream after a bad day.

You will never have known the feeling of love with the people you care most being beside you after a bad day. 

Is this life you wanted? 

There is no guideline on how to live life.

There's no avoiding happiness and sadness.

Even best friends argue. Even lovers argue. Even family members argue. 

We can sit down and cry. It is okay to cry. Crying is not a sign of weakness. Its actually a strength in you bcz you know you stil care.

But after that, 

It is of utmost importance that we learn how to pick ourselves up.

Stand up from where we fall. 

The world is so big. There is an endless world of possibilities. If we are still alive. 

Alive- means having the ability to feel/ to think/ and of cz to breathe 

Stand up, dont fear getting hurt. 

Its life. We are born to walk this path. 

If we fear, we wil never grow. We will never learn. We will be trapped inside the world we created. 

Trapped under the shell we made. 

The world will not slow down jz cz one individual is thinking so much 

The world is there. Its up to us whether we want to grow along with it.

Or to stay back, and just spend time thinking thinking and thinking about a problem which has no turning back

Be brave. 

Dont be scared to be happy. Its our rights. No one can take that from us. Its all in the head, how we control our head and our heart. 

We have only one head and one heart. So dont let our head overrule the heart and vice versa. 

Dont be a robot bcz we are not. 

Appreciate life, and appreciate what we can do now while we are stil capable. 

Bcz after a period of time, when it is too late, there is no point regretting 

Time, waits for no one. 

Its time to sleep. Think la, snoopy. I dont know if this is the answer you are looking for,

But hope this helps you in finding your way forward.

Bcz only you yourself knows, 

What you actually want and what you are actually chasing. Kayyyyy

October 10 2012 Hours 2225 

October

Picture courtesy of Google Image

This October, is going to be a memorable month with many significant events. 

First, its the end of my first official job, after i grad

Two months, really flies.

I still rmb when i first started work in August, i hated this job. 

Not that i hate the job scope, i just didnt like the culture there. 

Its like everyone minded their own business, and everyone's colleagues and not friends. 

Perhaps its cz i feel abandoned, i hated the feeling of being alone.

And so i turned away. I told myself, i cant be long here. I need to run.

This is a childish mindset right? I admit. But i cant help but feel this way.

I prayed for returns of resumes sent.

And hell, i did really send in a lot. Especially targeting management trainee programmes.

Bcz i know, those are positions where you can learn the most from. 

God answered my prayers. Thanks God.

The first time i attended PMorris interview was on a Saturday. 

The time when i attended CIMB interview, was on a Selangor public holiday but it was a working day in KL. There were ample opportunities when the heart is willing. 

But as i worked and as months passed, I started to adapt to the coldness in the company. 

My boss is a great one, I am really fortunate to be under him.

He was really supportive and kind. Still rmb, when he told me,

When i was about your age, i didnt know what i wanted. That time, i just smiled. 

 I did not understand. But now, i understood. 

When i got my offers, one of the first people I thought of, was him.

I didnt know what he would think. All i knew that, i was sorry. 

When i got 2 attractive offers from 1 multinational company and 1 international company, 

Everything started to become messy as i lost direction. 

At this time, my cold colleague came in and surprisingly, he taught me a lot. 

I can say that he is one of those who understands most about my predicament, bcz he knows what im doing, what im going through, what i am going to choose. 

Its so funny, someone who hardly understands me, can do such much to me.

Maybe im too overruled by emotions, or i underestimated his capabilities. 

My mindset towards him, turned 360 degrees. 

As he became my dictionary, he gave me feeling of familiarity just like my kor

As i start to appreciate his presence sitting nxt to me in office. 

And as he starts to learn how to smile in front of me and joke with me. 

How come i didnt feel that previously? Was i really too hesitant to let myself into the job? 

Two more days to be with them 8 hours a day.

Need to appreciate, just hope, i will able to put them behind me as a part of my life.

Today, my boss taught me a principle. 

 Do not regret once you have decided. 

If you regret, you will be going back to the starting point, and start all over again. 

You will only be in circles and not proceed. 

One more principle to add into my dictionary. Thankss for still caring for me. 

Words cant say how much, your appreciation meant. 

I felt cared for. Am i too sentimental? Or i really thought too much?

3th October. Last day of work for my 1st official job after graduation.

Fion and SueShan's bday. Happy birthday :))) 

4th October. To take GDL lisence exam.

Wish me luck :)))

Need it desperately cz i cant fail

5th October. To get my lisence from JPJ. Hope all goes well :))) 

6th October. To take jubah and off to Johor for her wedding.

But first, stop @ Melaka

7th October. Yuwen's wedding. gratsss :D My initial date of resignation acc to the letter. Snoopy's birthday. Happy birthday and celebrate with Charlie Brown :)))

8th October. First day of work. Hope all goes well :)) Believe, I can.

13th/14th October: Convo :))) 

Flowers for Convo: Hehe another story to be continued.

My first, using recycled paper in the postbox. Okay wurt *self-praise - its recycled paper kayy* XD 

Yy did half of it bcz i was too stupid =.=

The sunflowers :))) 

My writing XD 

A friend's flower XD Lol im so bad. All i did was to comment and complain =.=

Err okay la, at least the shape is there.

But there's room  for improvement. lol the edges

*Talk as if im an expert* XD 

Dare to say cz i know he wont mind :))) 

Oct 20th -Photo session with them

Oct 21st- Goodbye Kl, Till we meet again. Will miss KL. Wait, i wil be back

Oct 22nd- Start work in Ipoh branch. 18 months programme max, need to perform bcz i wont want to stay there forever. I can. Will you support me? 

Oct 28th- Happy birthday mummy. Blessed to have you

Oct 31st- Lemon's bday. Lol. Happy birthday :)))

Hope, this will be a memorable month and everything will be there my way.

*Close my eyes and pray* 

Everything will be find as long as faith is still there.

Good night :)) 

October 1 2012 Hours 2337