Thoughts.Perceptions: October

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This October, is going to be a memorable month with many significant events.

First, its the end of my first official job, after i grad

Two months, really flies.

I still rmb when i first started work in August, i hated this job.

Not that i hate the job scope, i just didnt like the culture there.

Its like everyone minded their own business, and everyone's colleagues and not friends.

Perhaps its cz i feel abandoned, i hated the feeling of being alone.

And so i turned away. I told myself, i cant be long here. I need to run.

This is a childish mindset right? I admit. But i cant help but feel this way.

I prayed for returns of resumes sent.

And hell, i did really send in a lot. Especially targeting management trainee programmes.

Bcz i know, those are positions where you can learn the most from.

God answered my prayers. Thanks God.

The first time i attended PMorris interview was on a Saturday.

The time when i attended CIMB interview, was on a Selangor public holiday but it was a working day in KL. There were ample opportunities when the heart is willing.

But as i worked and as months passed, I started to adapt to the coldness in the company.

My boss is a great one, I am really fortunate to be under him.

He was really supportive and kind. Still rmb, when he told me,

When i was about your age, i didnt know what i wanted. That time, i just smiled.

I did not understand. But now, i understood.

When i got my offers, one of the first people I thought of, was him.

I didnt know what he would think. All i knew that, i was sorry.

When i got 2 attractive offers from 1 multinational company and 1 international company,

Everything started to become messy as i lost direction.

At this time, my cold colleague came in and surprisingly, he taught me a lot.

I can say that he is one of those who understands most about my predicament, bcz he knows what im doing, what im going through, what i am going to choose.

Its so funny, someone who hardly understands me, can do such much to me.

Maybe im too overruled by emotions, or i underestimated his capabilities.

My mindset towards him, turned 360 degrees.

As he became my dictionary, he gave me feeling of familiarity just like my kor

As i start to appreciate his presence sitting nxt to me in office.

And as he starts to learn how to smile in front of me and joke with me.

How come i didnt feel that previously? Was i really too hesitant to let myself into the job?

Two more days to be with them 8 hours a day.

Need to appreciate, just hope, i will able to put them behind me as a part of my life.

Today, my boss taught me a principle.

Do not regret once you have decided.

If you regret, you will be going back to the starting point, and start all over again.

You will only be in circles and not proceed.

One more principle to add into my dictionary. Thankss for still caring for me.

Words cant say how much, your appreciation meant.

I felt cared for. Am i too sentimental? Or i really thought too much?

3th October. Last day of work for my 1st official job after graduation.

Fion and SueShan's bday. Happy birthday :)))

4th October. To take GDL lisence exam.

Wish me luck :)))

Need it desperately cz i cant fail

5th October. To get my lisence from JPJ. Hope all goes well :)))

6th October. To take jubah and off to Johor for her wedding.

But first, stop @ Melaka

7th October. Yuwen's wedding. gratsss :D My initial date of resignation acc to the letter. Snoopy's birthday. Happy birthday and celebrate with Charlie Brown :)))

8th October. First day of work. Hope all goes well :)) Believe, I can.

13th/14th October: Convo :)))

Flowers for Convo: Hehe another story to be continued.