Rise and Shine

Up early in the morning and is now at the computer lab in faculty
trying to make my fyp proposal more presentable before needing to be submitted on fri
i'm lazy to drive out on friday, so my goal is to finish them by tmr
But i too need to study for exam on thurs night, and i dont have my notes yet
the truth is that, i dont know what else i can write
because i dont know what i want and i dont know what he wants
so i'm here blogging instead miserably
end of story chapter 1
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Borrowed a tin of car polish from cheehoe thankss
Meowz brought me a tin too thankss
And polished my car with yuwen
The white paint sticking to my car from the culprit were scrubbed off
But those original paint from my car could not be returned to me
So now its of ugly patches of black
But I suppose i should be grateful in a way
Because it could have been worse.
But at the same time,
It could have been none if the other party isnt that stupid
hmm maybe i havent driven for too many days
felt the stering is a little loose it can turn 360 degrees wasnt like that previously or was it?
Have to bring it for servicing on the 7th of Dec
Note to self: Ask dad for servicing money lol
end of story chapter 2
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PD is almost driving me crazy
Perhaps its because i am still trying to develop a liking for the product but still cant
And it isnt that i dont want to make a commitment
But i just wished, if the work division and time management factor is made better it would be more appreciated
Its launching day on the 21st of Dec
I think this month will be the longest month ever in my 7sems in uni
I just wish it will end soon.
I no longer care about the outcome.
I know it is so irresponsible of me.
I just want it to end.
I will make an effort.
But i just want it to end.
But after PD, it will be FYP
I have so many things to do and i dont know what i should do.
I need a break. Sail me to an island where time will stop and give me a 7 day vacation
Stop day dreaming.
A dream will remain a dream because theres no running away
endless story chapter 3
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Havent been back home for so long
Wanted to drive home but dont know why, after endless prohibitions i lost confidence in myself
I just dont know, or i am just too lazy to fight back
Maybe lazy is not an appropriate word
A better word will be energyless. If this word even exists?
I want to go out on outings
Many things on my wish list
How sad it is when there's work all the way and no time for playing
No time even for movies.
Omg as i'm typing this i wonder if i am talking about myself?
MunYee, get a life
Reply from inner voice: I wish i could
Swt. I am now starting to talk to myself. lmao
endless story chaper 4
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Money factor.
I am not poor, but i am poor.
This statement is a little hard to elaborate on so lets not get started
to be continued chapter 5
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People.
People change. I change. Its inevitable.
But how i wish, the changes will not be so fast to that i will have the time to adapt
I wish i could care less.
But i hate myself for not being so.
What should i do?
No mood story chapter 6

November 23 2011 Hours 0920
Good morning and happy bday johnie =)

Sat Evening's Post

Sat down in front of my laptop, studying for Pd, and came to my blog..

And i didn like what i saw. November has not been kind to me so far, and so i decided to post this blog on happenings so that all the bad things wil go away =.=

Got these pictures from fb, those events which had been made public =) As for personal ones, lets talk about that later could we? ♥

First of November, right after i have pumped in petrol, off to Kajang to find Stevia, but unfortunately failed, and we ended up having lunch in Oldtown, no pictures, but its my 2nd visit to Kajang

Some days after, 10th Nov, off to celebrate fatt's bday in Sri Petaling fetched by Fion (yay i dont need to drive =) )

The initial plan was to go right after Nazamid's class, but since they have to get the cake from Subang, and was stuck in a jam not knowing when they wil be back, we waited and waited before deciding to go back home for a bath

2 mins before reaching home, they called and said that they have almost reached Serdang~ but since we ad reached Bukit Serdang, its worthless to come that far and then go back there without any results-- so i went for a 5 minute bath, kelam-kabuting, never bathed and dressed that fast in my life before lol

And then we got lost on the way-- and finally we reached Sri Petaling, the place was familiar and i rmbered its my cousin bro's wife's hometown~ oh well~

Group picture before the arrival of Fatt, Ivan and Rave, the latter two was trying to hide this event from the bday boy

Swt. This photo i look super ugly. lmdy.

Two days after, after Finishing School (i was dressed in that ugly formal shirt while Fion brought clothes to change without telling me and yy went home to change =.= )

Drove to kajang for satay--luckily dailou had gps cz we got lost-- to celebrate fatt's bday for the 2nd time.. my 1st time kajang-satay-ing =)
Why i look so angry geh in this pic. haha

After satay kajang-4 varieties-chicken-duck-lamb-one more duno what--fatt wanted to tapau cake to bring home to eat as supper=.=

How can we let a bday boy to tapau cake to eat alone at home on his bday @.@

And so we went to Secret Recipe =)
Happy 24th bday to you =)
Hmm in between the two bday celebrations, which is on the 11/11/11.. is Xinting's ROM at Thean Hou temple

Drove Fion there while following MunCheng's car from behind.. super many cars and i lost her.. luckily dont need to uturn after i missed the junction into the temple

So pretty ♥ The bride and groom
Fion and 1 with Xinting =)
Congratss and happy ever after♥

On an unknown date which couldnt be revealed die to life and death reasons, the 4 of us went for Syabu buffet at Kuchai Lama =)
Rm28.80 nett per pax annd Yuwen drove thankss =) Ate till super full but i dont think i managed to eat food worth rm28.80 cz there's not much meat served-- anyway thats my lunch and dinner

Nov 18th, went for 1Malaysia Faboulous Food Exhibition at Putra World Trade Centre

Thankss meowmeow for driving us to LRT station muakzz

Group photo taken using my phone before LRT came.. not bad right, but the night mode pics are a little ugly.. when can i have enough money to buy a camera =.=

Yer i feel so weird wearing a dress when everyone's decently dressed but my jeans are soaked due to the walk-in-the-rain-library-session the day before..

Tried wearing a pair of shorts but yuwen said i looked as if i was going to the market lol anyway

With Kahyan =)
and with Siewli:)
Half of November has passed and i hope the other half wil bring me things i wished for instead of giving me surprises, which took my heart away.

Good luck to me ♥ Study hard for 2nd test and god bless

December, waiting for you. My birthday is coming, christmas is coming, CNY is coming, Sem break is coming. Cant wait =)

Nov 19 2011 Hours 2007

ps need to improve my hairstyle omg lol

Not Okay

As i was walking to lab, a stranger smiled at me and asked, am i okay?

I smiled back at him, nodded, but i dont even hv the energy to say

...i'm fine.

i really am not.but i dont understand why i couldn't fake it even to a complete stranger

Perhaps deep down, i am really very sad.

I couldn't even defend something which has been given to me.

I feel so useless, though its not my fault and the if-only's start crossing my mind.

This situation made me ask myself, how come i have become so vulnerable.

I am not even brave enough to take charge to see the seriousness of this incident

What i felt was just anger, pure anger, and i wasnt surprised if you saw venom in my eyes

I tried to sit down and study, but my heart was palpitating madly, and i gave up trying to fight it

Emotions overcome rationality, and i could not speak.

Such a long time since i felt this way

I dont want it to be this way.How could i change?

November 17 hours 1609 sry if i scared any of you it wasnt meant to be like that.

I know this line is bad, dont judge me by my blog,but i curse you for doing this to me, come and confess if you are brave enough to face me.hit and run! No ethics!

Dont think you can stay hidden you should know you left lotsa white paint on my car!

Blogged using my phone while waiting for tempe to dry hope i wont measure d wrong thing calm

Say i'm immature or what, but i'm serious.

STUPID!!

Week 8

*Image from Google*

Its week 8 of my 2nd last semester..

....and i am thoroughly exhausted!

Even though the day before was a holiday, Haji, but i didnt feel it because all my works seem never ending

Days and weeks passed and my productivity gets lower and lower

How could it be?

Someone, tell me. Please. Sos. MunYee needs help.

Give me a solution in my dreams♥

Had a chat with my housemates and surprisingly, she said that i am very thrifty

But i think i spent approximately Rm1300 in the past two months ever since school reopens which includes spending my salary

True, this sem i have a car to feed, but still, it exceeded my previous expenditures a lot lot lot

Considering that this sem i dont even have much time to go for shopping purposes

What did i buy? Hmm house rental Rm105 X 2 + plus plus fees of hmm say RM100 ; my shoes of Rm 150, clothes of Rm200, bigbad wolf of Rm 120.. thats all wor for the big fees.. quite a lot also looking back =.=

I am broke.. but i have many plans =.= Isnt life about work and pleasure?

Need to be more thrifty and dont spend unnecessary money..

And most importantly those who owe me money PLZ RETURN TO ME ASAP i dont print money kayyy

Conclusion: Very down this semester

I have no money and no life T.T

Afti's notes add to my misery. Naza works together with him to strangle me. My Pa works together with all of them to push me into the valley. Not to mention my PD.. omg!

Need to learn self defence. Taekwando/karate classes, anyone?

November 8 2011 Hours 2159

Random Outing

Initially wanted to write a blog post about fyp but ended up writing it in the other blog of mine =.=

Wrote it the BIG and small cases and with CoLouRs but none of them showed =.=

And so i thought of writing another blog post so that i can reach 100 posts by the end of 2011

Random outing to Jalan Kuchai Lama..

Massive traffic jam due to peak hours and perhaps due to the rain..

Anyone who had been my passenger before knows that i am an impatient driver sorry

I will grumble and grumble lol swt but its true zzZ perhaps for the sense of.. well, life's like that=)

Was feeling sick that day but a little hungry simply irresistible

WinSoon Cafe's Fish Head's Mihun-- Fish Head+Fish Paste's Mihun-- etc etc.. sotong prawn also available..

Rm8.50++ for this bowl

The four of us:) Hot mihun on a wet afternoon~ delicious
After that, of to Snowflakes for dessert..

Taufufah~ hmm
Our orders..
My dessert:) Ice at the bottom, Glass jelly series+taroball series (info from www.snowflake.com.my)
Outfit for the day:)

One question; My dress is very old-fashioned? =.= Fion went to borrow it for her ancient-drama acting performance zzZ. Nice mar.. different feel:)

Signing this blog post off with a long weekend with notes and assignments

and of cz some episodes of dramas:)

November 4 2011 Hours 1638

My birthday is coming, i'm growing older:( Cny is coming, its time for new clothes:)

Btw, thankss Fion for the McD treat:)

Different People, Different Views?

Sometimes, i wonder if i am the one who is thinking too complicatedly, or if its just a matter of different perceptions and upbringings

But before you read this post, please be informed that this is just a matter of personal opinion and is not meant to defame anyone though this is happening, just right in front of my eyes

Just such a simple issue can let me see you much more clearly

Its not much, but it represents your attitude and personality, how much you appreciate what i have done

Its not that i actually care how much i have given, but to think back that it is not worth it, sometimes it hurts because i was feeling so stupid

Hmm even if i were to open a charity organization at least there will still be words of thanks or just a gesture of gratitude and its for those who are in need, definitely not this

Not that i really need those ''heyy thanks a lot'' nor i am being calculative, i really dont mind, but i do believe in sincerity

Dont say okay if you are not, dont make promises if you cant realise them, dont say anything if you cant afford to

Dont know why, but really feel hurt today when i am just sitting behind you and you just dont look like you actually remember or i actually exist

I thought when we said mutual, it means everyone?

Think all you want about me, but i really dislike dislike dislike

What i hate about myself also is that..

I just sat there silently. Waiting.

But i am starting to think, it is not worth it.

But if i were to ask, it will not be.. nice.. i dont know, i dont like asking people for things, unless i am really close to you. But i am not!

Moral of the story:

Dont make promises if you cant keep them..

And..

After a promise has been made, do keep them and make sure they are realised.

Because once a trust has been broken, it is broken.

My life philosophy

I have to confess..

I am thoroughly disappointed with you.

Just wait.. i can turn pretty evil. Dont wait till that moment. I am not easy to be bullied!!

*Good girl image gone with this post lol*

But you can never see me more serious

November 2 2011 Hours 1833

p/s thanks yuwen for cooking dinner for me hehe