Choices- My Answer

 Life paths.

When the road is unclear, and you dont know what you are chasing,

you rely on people to give you opinions.

However, every person has different options because every one is different.

There is no right or wrong opinions, because no one knows whats there in the future. 

Its a journey, called life. 

Or sometimes,we rely on answers gained from the game of possibilities. 

I did. Not only once but 5 times.

But dont know why, upon getting an answer, i will throw again.

What am i actually expecting? 

I dont know. 

Bored in office today, so went for drawing class. hehe

I had all the time for myself bcz upon knowing that i will be leaving, my boss reduced my workload.

Really felt i have disappointed him. 

I have nothing else to say, but just a word of sorry.

I mean it.

As im doing that, i thought of doing, goals in life.

I sat down and thought.

And thats what i had in mind. 

And it all became clear. 

I actually do not really have passion in R & D.

I am not that honorable to change the world through research

Lol my lecturers will kill me. And considering that i havent received my scroll yet? omg secret

I took a long time to consider becz I wanted to be close to people i care a lot for.

And i wanted an opportunity to learn through people guiding me.

Bcz i am afraid. I am afraid of the world outside. I am afraid of making mistakes.

I am afraid, i will be drowned in this game. I am afraid,i will be drowned, in this industry. 

Today, what he said made it all clear. 

Perhaps he said what i really wanted to hear?

Maybe deep down i ady had an answer, but i didnt want to face it due to friend factor.

Perhaps, their position in my heart is higher than what i expected.

I mind what they think of me. I value their opinions more than i listen to myself. 

He told me, the industry is complicated but do have faith in yourself. 

He asked me, why doubt myself? 

I told him im afraid.

"Afraid of what? "

"Afraid of the future, uncertainties on what wil follow." 

"If you can predict whats going to happen in the future, you should open stall to become fortune teller ady"

"This industry is bad"

"And food industry isnt?"

"How is food industry bad?"

"Instant noodles, sugar, preservatives,arent they also harming people? People, every person, has their own choices. You cant be responsible for all. Dont think so much about people's perceptions. What is important, is what you think is your priority,then work for it".

I know that in the outside world, i will meet many complicated people.

People, by nature, are complicated. 

You will see them anywhere. Its up to you, how you want to tackle them.

There's no running away from them your whole life

Be strong and dont be a coward. 

There are many possibilities that may happen.

But without doing new things, how will you grow? 

Every day,you will be living under the shelter of a laboratory. 

Is it the life, i wanted, or am i destined to fly? 

Am i trying to fit in? Where do i really belong? 

After my choice,will you wholeheartedly support me?

Or you say you support me cz you know its the answer i want to hear? 

2 more days to really think about it.

Time to go home=)))))

Byebye Selangor Hours 1929 14092012 

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