Simplicity

The simplicity of everything.

Its easy to say, but its not that easy to make yourself do it.

Sometimes, i wonder if i'm thinking too much. Perhaps, but at times, its beyond my control.

I wont count myself as being an emotional person. But if i'm not emotional, why do i feel so, hmm.. undescribable feelings.

Is there a time in life, when we will feel that we are at loss, seriously?

Sometimes, i really wish that time will stand still,

And memories will remain realities, the future will not be harsh, staying the way we are.

But i know that wont happen. And its really stupid of me to think this way.

Its really time, to, move forward.

I'm not giving up, i've just seen the simplicity of the situation, everything is not that complicated after all.

I cant always be protected from the realities of this world.

I need to stand up on my own.

Life can just be that simple.

Hours 0110 June 30

p/s In case any of you ae wondering, yea, thats me. I dont know what i was doing, but i guess i wwas lost. Lol.

Learning from the past =p

Today

I dont know what happened today

For the first time since i started this blog, i am lost for words.

I stared at my laptop keys, but i dont know which key to touch.

Forget about blogging tonight.

Blogging is my passion, my inspirations, but tonight, it has become my burden.

Today, too, i broke a promise i made.

I had a choice, but i didnt choose the other option.

Will i regret?

June 29 Hours 0203

Congrats to you. After so long he finally had the courage.

Although one line of yours really shocked me. It was really out of expectations.

To be frank, i really didnt know how to react.

If only i knew earlier,

Will the outcome be different?

But you have chosen. You deserve someone better than me.

Thats why i was sincere in supporting you.

Good Night. Till we meet again

One word

One word- Tired

But i'm glad this week is over, with me successfully finishing my tenure of work.

Many ppl i met, many things i gained from this job.

Talk about it later.

Jz wanted to share what my supervisor told me,

Hmm actually i also forgot what he told me ad.

He sent me a very inspirational sms but i'm lazy to search back

My phone's inbox, i also no eye see ad. Due to my laziness to delete sms, now it has even more msgs than my gmail lolz

Reaching 4000. Someday muz go for some phone-sms-washing now that i have time

No sms means that this post has no focus, no significance, no main points.

Omg. Sorry ya. I'm also starting to laugh at myself. MunYee Wong what are you doing? New way of blogging. Lolz.

But when i got his sms, i really thought a lot. At the first glance, i didnt agree with him.

But as he started to defend his points, i started to see what he meant.Though i couldnt agree with him 100%, as i still stood by my stand.

Maybe today i'm in a semi-conscious mind, cant really recall what was it about. It was about hope and future, but i cant rmb the details.

I must be crazy. Talking about stuff like that to my supervisor.

He told me, when he has the chance to meet me, he will convince me. Lol. I really wonder how he looks like. Tall, dark and handsome? Wakaka

I have never seen him before. All these while, we jz kept in touch via email and sms. All the stuff were sent to me via courier, and he relied on the promoter to check on me. The 8 promoter. Sweat..

Meeting him or not doesnt matter, as long as my pay is prompt. Haha. But now i'm thinking of how to settle the free gifts left. Haiz.. another headache.

Frm this job, sometimes i really wonder if i'm selling body spray, or t-shirt.

Peple seems to be more interested in the shirt rather than the spray. Before smelling the spray, they wanted to see the tshirt design beforehand, touching the cloth, see the sizes.. really.. i'm also speechless.

When i told them only got XL size, some even told me, i dont want to buy ad, no sizes to choose from. Omg..

Still got some remainders of .. and .., some for my bro, for my couz, and some for my frens, and one to trade for salonplas. Lolz.

Dont let my boss see this. I dont hope to get deductions from may pay cz of this one line in my blog. Secret kayzz =p

Another week for me to play =) But first, i need some sleep.

Good night =)

June 28 Hours 0023

A day

I'm going to make this blog post super short.

No reasons, i'm just tired. But i feel like blogging. So here i am =)

Today, is a day full of surprises.

It not only makes me amazed, it leaves me amused.

Thanks. Thanks for making my day.

A simple gesture, means a lot.

Good night

Hours 2307, June 25

People

People.

Now i understand where the idiom all walks of life comes from

Different people, makes life unpredictible.

The more people we meet, the more we know about the cruelties of this world.

How people manipulate people, to achieve what they want.

How people treat people, to seek their dreams.

Does the word care really exists? Relationships between people, is it really that complicated?

Sometimes, i have to admit, i dont know what you want.

Sometims, i have to admit, i'm amazed. But sometimes, i'm uncertain.

How can people change so fast? A minute ago, you are like this; a minute later, i feel as if you are a stranger to me.

Are humans really meant to think to protect themselves?

Instead, of just being ourselves.

The world is so fake.

This is a reality.

Even though you may not want to admit,but it is true.

I have to admit,

I dont understand you.

I'm sorry.

June 25 Hours 0030

p/s Today an idiot asks me again if i'm in secondary school. Really omg. Sweatzz

Spices

I wonder.. what sort of friend i am

There are things i want to ask, but i dont dare.

There are things i want to share, but i dont dare.

Why am i afraid of being myself?

I am afraid of wasting your time, or am i afraid i'll make a fool of myself?

I wanted to be there, but sometimes, i am not sure if i can.

I am confused. I feel.. like i'm not myself. I dont know, sometimes, it feels so weird.

Enough of emo posts~ lallala.. time for me to update my day.

Someone asked me something today.

Kenapa tak pergi sekolah? Kerja kat sini masa skrg

omg.. i look like i'm in secondary school?

Well, seriously i dont know if i should be happy or sad after hearing this line. Indifferent. Haha

For 5 consecutive days, i have been living on bread and chocolate biscuits.

Dont know what shopping mall is that.. the food court food is worse than hostel's food

The lack of sleep+ the long standing hours+ the lack of water+ the lack of vitamins= sick

Plus cant even get hot water to bathe with when work is over.

Someday, should replace the solar bath with an electric bath. Being the last to bathe at home, whats left is only cold water. Haiz..

Sick again. Omg. But i have no other choices left as i cant quit my job or take leave, if i were to do so, all salary from the pervious days will be forfeited.

My 5 days of work, i really saw many different people. Some can make me laugh, some can make me smile, some can really make me cry.

Guys, really. Haha. Spices of life.

Wondering, thinking, suddenly, i start to wonder.. how you are doing. Really hate myself. This is so absurd.

But i cant find an explanation. Even to convince myself

June 23, Hours 0040

Why

Suddenly i have mood to post this. Why do i start a new blog?

I wont say i had planned this for a long time. It actually came to me.

Actually its just me binding myself. Maybe a part of me was hoping for a miracle, but i know it wont.

There's no point hanging on. But hey. not that i want to start a new blog everytime i..

Pity my frens too. Sorry ya.

Its just that there are too many memories in the old blog that i want to put aside.

Maybe forgiven. but not forgotten. I ask myself, why not try putting that down?

I will feel lighter. I did. Maybe not entirely, but perhaps time cn tell. Time can heal. Time can change.

Today, my fren suddenly told me i'm naive. I have to confess, i was surprised. I fought back, i told him what i told him was not due to naive-ness. Its due to trust.

But as i thought deeper, maybe he was right. I was too protected from the harshness of this world. Thats why its so easy to hurt me. Thats why i ended up in this predicament.

I will learn to grow up. Facing the world is not easy. But i must. I have to.

Tonight, i thought back of many things. Things that seemed so important to me previously, seemed so childish now.

Maybe its a process of growing up, but its also a process of me getting more hard.My heart was not the same like how it used to be

I wont say its due to you. Its not your fault entirely. Its just me. I am in the process of learning how to protect myself. Mentally, emotionally.


Sunset. Sunset represents the end of the day, but there's still hope as the sun will rise again tmr.

I have seen many sunsets, but its only now that i get its significance.

I am not waiting for hope anymore, i am waiting for something bigger.

I am waiting for myself. To learn to be stronger. To be more mature. Instead of who others perceive me as.

I wont be afraid anymore. I have to be tough. Its not a choice i have anymore.

Hope doesnt come from the surroundings, from what others give you.

Hope comes from your inner self, if you think there's hope, all may not be lost, yet.

But sometimes, of cz, sensibility comes. When there's really no way through, just let it be instead of holding on to it.

You will only hurt yourself. Like i did.

Looking beyond the horizon may not be a bad choice after all.

Giving myself a change, giving myself another chance, giving myself another life.

The world is so big. There's so many things i haven seen, so many things i haven done, so many people i haven met.

Of cz, i still treasure those around me. You guys really meant the world.

Without you all, I'm nothing. I still appreciate. No worries, i'm still the same old me.

I'm just trying to be a new improved formula while still retaining the same old me.

Thoughts of a food technogists. Haha. But yea, i'm serious.

Hours 0150, 23 June 2010

About starting this blog, i welcome feedback but plz do not ask me any questions.

Because what i write are mostly thoughts and not factual with references, once the thought had passed, perhaps it had really passed.

There are no right or wrong thoughts, whether you agree with me or not, its beyond my control.

Perhaps its selfish of me to think this way, I am sorry. Perhaps i am like that.

Justifications, to me, are not as important. Because if you understand, you will. And if you do not, if you were meant to understand, in time, you will understand sooner or later.

Dont be curious, because curiosity kill the cat. Watch Nickelodeon. Haha

p.s. Time to sleep. Working again tmr. Dont say i'm tired. Think positive! I urge myself.

But is it that easy?

No matter what, i will try. Promise myself.

22 June 2010

Really cant believe today is only.. Tuesday

I'm getting tired of saying this, but i'm seriously tired

I had had many plans yet to be accomplished.

Many dreams yet to be realised.

Many things yet to be done.

I hate it when i wanted to get something done, but i couldnt.

I now know, i dont like routine work.

I'm not extraordinary, i dont need something extra special, i just dont like routine work.

I am beginning not to see my future. I cant see how its like.

Being in the factory everyday seeing the same old machines and the same production line?

I really shudder at the thought. Frankly speaking, this is not how i imagine food technology to be.

Am i regretting not studying hard in F6? A little, its undeniable i do feel like that at times.

i cant change the past. But what can i do in the future? Sales and marketing line?

In the sales and marketing line. i can only see one word = target

Life will all be about chasing targets. There will no longer be true frens in the work field.

Instead of being frens, everyone will be enemies when it comes to money. Its sad, but its a fact.

When we are down, there's no one to confide in. What significance will life hold?

Something i really wonder. After i graduate, where is my path?

I am sad to say, i dont know. So now what?

We live only once. I dont want to do something i might regret.

Because once chosen, its forever. If not forever, its ad half of our life.

But anyway, life is not really about the length, is about the significance.

Taking things as they come. Its time to really get some serious thinking done, what is it that i actually want?

Holidays and more holidays? Haha seems like a tour guide job will be great for me. Lol

Maybe its not so for me. Its more to Fion's field. Haha.

As for me, i need to start to have an aim. I know its late, but better late than never.

Just hope i wont procrastinate =p

p.s. Happy bday to my dad =) Many many blessings. Muakzz

Tired

So tired

I'm so tired

I'm superb tired

Backache legache hands ache everywhere aching

I'm serious

Today's only my 1st day at work

Still got 8 more days to go.

How can i survive?

I think..

I'm going to lose my sense of smell due to too much variety of sprays

This line is correct- too much of everything can make you sick

Luckily i took sensory this sem, if its nxt time, i'm going to fail it 100%

I cant achieve my target today.

But i ad expected. I am ad grateful i didnt get an egg.

Hey c'mon. That store is patroned by uncles and aunties together with their kids.

You cant expect them to buy body spray right?

Its so hard to get them to test, what more buy

My fren told me-finally you un how i feel when i cant achieve my target.

Lol. I finally un. Cz even though i worked for so long before, i had never been asked to fulfil an individual target

Some funny clients i met today. So many different types of people. Haha

Tmr is a brand new day

But i dont see anything new regarding it.

I can forsee how tmr will be like. Same boredom. Same tiredness.

Working life is like that? So routine-like?

Next time, when i find a job, i need to find one that offers me a chair.

If there's no chair offered, i dont mind using my own money to get myself one.

Lol. Lazy me. But i'm serious. From the depths of my heart.

Why torture ourselves? Dont we work to give ourselves a better life?

Time to sleep. Happy father's day =p

p.s. To my another fren: I enjoy playing with you. But dont take to heart what i told you ya =p muahaha. I think after today's conversation u'll take back all those compliments you paid me lol

Posted 20 June 2010 Hours 0005

Surprise Package

Surprise package delivered to my house for me.

I expected just my uniform, i didnt expect 3 big boxes for work. Sweatzz..

How am i supposed to carry all these to the store tmr?

All these free gifts for the customers who bought. Can either choose one of this or a shirt which is limited.

The package of shirts. Only limited to 10 persons a day.

Free gift: Babe Magnet shirt. The picture indicates that once they use this deodorant all the girls will be attracted to the guys like magnet. Lol

Free gift Num 2; I have aprox 500 of this. For guys who are hesitating, get one and turn when you need to make a decision. Lol

Yea and also the tester tins, the punch card ( yes i see it again) and the tester sheets.

Click: A smooth move of airy freshness with an edge of space that just works

Africa: An exotic melts of scents of hot vanilla with a cool Mandarin zest

Pulse: An energizing citrus fragrance with aa fresh sexy beat

Temptations: Irresistible, Rich chocolate and cream merged in a sensual fragrance

Axevice: An arresting fusion of sweet juicy fruits

Wow. These names are so cool. But target 15-20 tins a day. Omg..

There's one more problem: I think i am sensitive to the smell omg..

Cz when my bro starts spraying those testers, I suddenly feel i cant breathe

Hope tmr will be fine.God bless. Muackzz

Planning a trip. Bluekzz

MuNYee

Superb bored..

So went to upload all personal pictures here from my Thai trip~ lolz

Having mood to upload but lazy to rearrange =p

Sorry ya =)



1st:At the airport on the way back to KL. Barely awake cz morning flight. Plus time in Thai is an hour earlier than Malaysia, so its really super early

2nd: The last day there-complete outfit. Really fat ad.. need to resist eating so much lol

3rd: Me on the boat, ready to go snorkelling =) Life jacket so smelly..

4th: Me SS in the toilet while waiting for mum. Dark ad after coming back from the sun

5th: More siman picture~ lol self-praise.

6th: Most bizarre picture of all. Haha. Me before going snorkelling. Snorkelling was cool, but i drank a lot of water i shouldnt drink. Terrible brother~ knew i cant swim and still wana drown me. Sweatzz

7th; The new shirt i bought in johor. haha. 2nd day outfit~

8th; Last but not least, my 1st outfit.. the one that makes me look the fattest omg..

Conclusion; I need to lose weight lol. Dont laugh. I'm serious =p

Working Again

Miss Sheryl will be working again =(

I have the feeling i will be one of the worst promoters in the history. Omg.

I dont know anything about the products i'm promoting.

Although i'm working alone but i have 5 partners

Presenting: My 5 partners

Body Spray for guys. AXE deodorant of Unilever.Really omg.

Cz when sampling, i have to spray onto the hands of potential customers.

When spraying onto their hands, sure will kena my hand.

After work, i think i will smell like the perfume shop. Sweatzz

Wondering how to get rid of the smell when i get back. Lol.

But the salary is quite okay. RM 90 a day for 8 hours job including lunch hour. And RM 130 if target is reached

Reaching target? I think will be a dream coming true. Lol.

Anyway jz hope that everything will be fine=)

But when i thought of working, i will surely be bored. Extremely bored. Haiz..

Find sms victim to bully. Lol.

But one regret of working at this period of time is that i will miss Father's Day celebration and dad's bday.

I will make up to you. Buy you a bigger gift once i get my salary. I mean the leftover salary from my trips. Lol. I promise

Meanwhile, Gk stuff is giving me headache. Perhaps it has something to do with my character as a procrastinator, i never seem to get things done.

When i on my laptop, the first page i open is the Garis Panduan Kertas Kerja.

And sadly, the last page i close is also that document, unprocessed.

I blogged, i uploaded pics, i chatted, i fb-ed, but i cant seem to rply Shawn's email.

Omg. I have a feeling he's doubly triply going to kill me. Haiz..

Should try to settle it tnight. Anyhow i have to get it done, so why not now?

Its easy to convince myself but its not easy to get started.

Sweatzz...

Starting

My first post here.

A new start, a new beginning, a new blog.

Will justify why when i have time.

The past is over, no point dawning over it.

Presenting..

The new me =)

Muackzz